Self Pity and keeping score

Don't know if you believe in God or have any kind of relationship with a higher power but if you do, imagine if God said "I don't know why I continue to care so much about humanity when obviously the majority of humanity doesn't give a shit about me.

Most of us don't think about praying or wanting God to perform some kind of miracle in our life until the shit hits the fan, in other words when it's beneficial to us. What if God said fuck y'all? You only use me when you need something, the rest of the time you're acting crazy running around on self will. I'm done with all of you. 

From my understanding it's not like that. God loves us unconditionally. He doesn't care more about me than he does you, we are all equal. For me, knowing that is being humble. I was taught that being humble is knowing that I'm no better than anyone else but I'm no less than either. When I'm in that frame of mind I care about myself, I'm content and grateful for what I have, my acceptance of others is high and my expectations are low. I can love others unconditionally.

I have to remember that I can never give more than I have to give. When I sacrifice myself and cause hardship or stress in my life in order to help someone or make their life easier, I do it for one of two reasons, either out of unconditional love, meaning I want to do it and I expect nothing in return (low expectations= peace of mind) or I'm people pleasing, looking for acceptance (high expectations=

resentment, self pity, rejection, etc)

Some days it seems to come natural and some days it's a struggle but I have to also remember to be ok with myself first, love myself unconditionally. I have to ensure my needs are being met, spiritual needs that my God provides or I provide for myself, like food, shelter, taking care of my health and well being, not things I would expect from others, like attention, acceptance or validation. When I'm ok with me, I'm grateful and I'm humble. I'm then in a place to care for others and not expect anything in return.

 That's not saying I'm being a doormat, letting people walk over me and use me, again that would be people pleasing, looking for acceptance, but instead I can care for others and be there for them because I'm in a place mentally, emotionally and spiritually to where I can and want to. When I do it with the right intentions, it doesn't matter if the other person doesn't like me or can't stand me, there will come a day, the right place at the right time, I'll be down or struggling and that person will be there for me just like I was for them, but never if I'm expecting it or in some way demanding it. 

LWH2021

... but for the grace of god there go I

Something to think about....

What if you were a single parent with a child . You work full time for $15.00 hr. usually a 40 hour week which comes to $600.  After taxes and other deductions like insurance you bring home roughly $450.00 per week, $900 (bi-weekly) or $1800 month salary.

Your bills total

 $1,000 rent 

 $160 utilities

 $200 car payment

 $50 car insurance

  $240 groceries ($60 week)

   $50 cell phone

   $80 gas ($20 week)

_______

$1780

It's taking nearly everything you earn to just barely get by. We haven't even talked about daycare yet. You could possibly have a young child that someone needs to watch while you work. Some daycares can cost as much as $200 a week. The kids father is missing or refuses to pay child support.

  The point is, there are a lot of people living paycheck to paycheck and it's taking their entire paycheck to pay for just the bare necessities.

Now what if something were to happen, like say by chance you don't get 40 hours one week. You find yourself having to make a choice between cell phone, gas or groceries. You can't take anything from rent or utilities. Some of you complain about so many people on the roads driving without proper tags, registration and insurance, even licenses, now you see and know why. 

  Let's say something happens to your car and it needs a major repair, a really hot summer or colder than usual winter where you get a $400 Power bill, you miss a week of work or even just a few days because your child is sick and can't attend daycare with a fever. 

   You're now faced with a decision of how to you pay your bills, is there one that can wait until next month? Even if there is, come next month, you're still faced with the same decision and will be every month until you somehow get caught back up. 

   Maybe let's say you don't pay the entire power bill hoping they will add the balance to next month's bill, but they don't. Your power gets shut off. Now what? You call the power company and since it was disconnected, they now tell you that you have to pay a $250 deposit to get it back on. You can't pay it so you do the best you can until you can get it back on but your landlord finds out.

The lease on your apartment says you get evicted if your utilities are off so you get served with a notice saying you have 10 days to get out. 

You find another place but they want first months rent and equal deposit. If you had that much you would have never been evicted, plus they run a background & credit check and now see you were evicted which disqualifies you from renting anywhere.

No family, no close friends to stay with, you’re now living in your car if you're lucky to still have it. You have a child or children with you. You couldn't afford a storage so you had to leave a lot of things behind. The landlord keeps your security deposit for breaking the lease and cleaning fees for the things you left. You only have room in your car for just what you need to get by. 

Youve lost everything, you're paying to take showers at a truck stop, you're living on gas station food. Some do gooder comes along and sees you & your kids living like this & calls Social Services thinking you're some deadbeat parent. Police come and guess what? They take your child. 

You are trying to explain, no one is listening, things escalate, your child is crying, you're getting angry, next thing you know you're being put in handcuffs for disorderly conduct, assault on an officer, resisting arrest, loitering, child endangerment, taken to jail, can't pay a bond, you serve time, you now have a record. In order to get your child back you have to prove financial responsibility, have a place to live, food in the fridge, all those things you had before you were evicted but you can't because you can't get a job. You're now a convicted felon for assaulting an officer and have a record. Everywhere you turn is a dead end. Your car was impounded and racked up impound lot fees you can't pay. They won't let you get your belongings out of it. You're on the street with nothing but the clothes on your back. Homeless shelter is full no where to go. Don't be seen or caught in the open or you're arrested as a vagrant. When people start pointing or staring, you either duck behind cars out of sight or try to make it appear as if you're digging for your keys in your backpack. Anything so that no one calls the police again.

I’ll stop here ..... I hope you get the point . 

These are people you see everyday. They were once our co-workers, they were neighbors, they could even be our family or friends, but now they are standing on the street at major intersections with a sign asking for help. Imagine how humbling or humiliating that can be.

  THESE   PEOPLE ARE YOU AND ME!!

We are all so close to homelessness & don’t even realize it . Yes, this scenario is full of extreme circumstances but there are cases where the extreme happens. People getting hit with one bad break after another.

All it takes is : 

* one unexpected bill

* one major car repair

* one lay-off 

* one  house fire 

 *one sick child

 *one freak accident

and we find ourselves having to make that decision, what does or doesn't get paid.

I go on social media sites or community apps and I see people posting about situations where they may see people on the streets asking for help. Maybe someone in a parking lot acting strange. You may know of a section of woods where you suspect homeless people may be living.

Instead of judging people who are less fortunate than you because you think you got to where you are from having worked harder, or condemning someone who's homeless thinking the reason they are is because they spend all their money on drugs or lock your doors out of fear when you approach an intersection where someone is holding a sign asking for help, instead of calling the police because you suspect there's a crowd of deplorables living in a section of woods you pass by, worried they are breaking into homes, instead of demanding these people be arrested because you just know they are part of an operation involved in human trafficking, instead of making their life even more difficult because they make you uncomfortable, why don’t you try practicing some gratitude that you’re not in their shoes and offer some help. If you don't feel comfortable offering help or personally you can't afford to, then maybe mind your own business. If you are threatened by the people and I'm not talking about hypothetically or what if but actually verbally threatened or feel someone poses an actual harm to someone then call police but this whole attitude acting like every person who doesn't look like you, talk like you, dress like you, live like you or you think doesn't belong in your neighborhood, needs to stop. Stop the self righteous, inflated ego and just plain ignorant attacks on innocent people thinking you're some how better than they are. Try practicing some humility.

I realize there are evil people in the world. Not everyone is your friend. Some people want your money, some want your car or belongings and some may want you, but there are those who legitimately want and desperately need your help.

 Yes, someone's it's hard or near impossible to distinguish between those that are out to take advantage of you and those needing assistance. The only possible solution may be to outlaw all types of solicitation. Eliminate the act of asking for or receiving help in any way other than going through agencies specifically for this. Charlotte has even had one of it's leaders suggest giving fines to people who "feed the animals", specifically making it illegal to help someone without going through a licensed charity or government agency.

This country has a habit of this type of thinking and action. Rather than solve the problem, we allow the problem to continue and try to eliminate negative outcomes of the problem. It's like trying to plug a hole in a dam with sand. If by miracle it did work, the water would just find the next weakest point. 

It's a selfish decision. Rather than put in the effort to fix it right, we choose the easiest, quicker way or complain loud until somebody does something.

In the scenario, things should never be allowed to get to that point. People shouldn't be working for $15 an hour while some earn billions. I'm not against capitalism or earning what you work for but honestly, Amazon could DOUBLE every single one of their employees pay rate and Jeff Bezos could still live a lavish lifestyle. No one person should have multiple mansions spread across the world while there are those who are homeless. The majority of humanity should not be ruled by a select few and struggle in the process. No one in the entire world, ANYWHERE, should have a want or a need for anything. If this is what society has evolved too where it has become normal to step on others to get to where we are going then it is wrong and we will not last. It is a slow global suicide. We will eventually kill ourselves and quite possibly have already done that once or several times before. We will continue to do it until we learn to take care of this place we live, take care of each other and live by that one golden rule. 

Self destruction isn't far away. Everyday we divide ourselves further by any and all lines imaginable... Race, religion, sexual identify, politically, financially, age, creed, geographically and on. We constantly look for new ways to draw lines to separate ourselves from the group or actually to separate and remove those we don't want in the group.

This is about staying humble & being kind. Humility defined to me is knowing I'm no better than while knowing I'm also no less than. The best way to show humility is do something kind for someone but do it in a  way that they don't know who did it and don't tell anyone what you did. Help someone 100 percent anonymously.

Tell yourself, but for the grace of god there go I. We are in this together and it will take us working together to get out of it.

 

LWH2021

Love can't be defined

Love can't be defined. It's different for everyone. For some it's unconditional, others may put conditions on whether or not it's given or taken. Honestly though, whether we want to give it or not, whether we want to receive it or not, love is everywhere in everything. It's a universal seed responsible for all life, a master emotion that supercedes all others, the solution to every problem, the answer to every question. It's up to individual responsibility if we want to see it, feel it, use it or not. For that very reason we can't logically pin it to only one certain thing. Hell sometimes it's hard enough to even explain it or understand it, much less define it.

Love is more than being happy, laughing, enjoying someone's presence in your life or everything being perfect. Sometimes love is despising the person you're with but willing to lower your expectations for a minute, raise your level of acceptance and support them through the process of changing the behaviors that made you despise them to begin with. 

Sometimes love is being willing to look at your own shortcomings and willing to make changes in yourself. Love isn't always about just giving and receiving, sometimes it's about sacrificing and humbly learning to accept help. 

Love is not only the catalyst responsible for creating new relationships, it can also be the strength to end a relationship. Even if you do separate yourself from a personal relationship, that doesn't necessarily mean you stopped or even have to stop loving them. Love means you can still be there for that person if they need help, a shoulder to cry on or just someone to vent to. Love can also be loving yourself enough to leave that relationship all together if it's the cause of chaos in your life. In fact, when we come to those crossroads and find ourselves facing that decision of whether or not to walk away, heartbroken and full of self doubt, if we take a moment to dig around in the muck of what's left and find that little ember of love that's still there and it always is, love can never be entirely put out, but if we find it, focus on it, put it in our hearts to replace that which has been missing, use it for strength to keep moving forward, life from that point will be less painful, shorten the grieving process, put us and keep us on a shorter, easier path to finding our love, that love meant for us we can't live without.

We rarely consider that loving principles such as humility, compassion and forgiveness are just as much for our enemies, if not more for them, as they are for those we like and accept. We don't have to be infatuated with a person, related to or involved with anyone in any way in order to be kind or to help them. We should be kind and willing to help anyone, in everything we do. That's love.

If we don't soon get a grasp on some of these concepts and principles that give us opportunities to express our love - things like the golden rule (do unto others as you would have them do unto you), love thy neighbor, volunteering our time, be of service to others, believe all life matters,  remain humble and especially learn to love unconditionally, in other words, something completely opposite of the shit that society is doing now, our future as an evolving species isn't looking too good. What we've been doing, the way we treat others and for that matter, how we treat ourselves, is not working. It never will. 

We have been conditioned to put conditions on just about everything we do, especially in the way we interact with and treat others. Conditions on how we see ourselves. We lack an identity and are lost because we are subjected to subliminal ads that tell us we aren't tall enough, fast enough, pretty enough, smart enough or anything enough without something we can purchase for the special discounted price of $??.⁹⁵ and if we call now we can get two, yes a second one for just the cost of shipping. That will surely fix us and all our problems we're told.

 We have divided ourselves along every line imaginable. Separating ourselves into groups consisting of those who share our passion on a particular topic. This will always automatically create an opposing group because everyone is not going to share our vision or stance on a topic. Sometimes I seriously believe the only reason some of these groups are even started or remain in existence is 

a) so these groups will expose those that don't share your beliefs

b) so that those who don't share your beliefs can now be harassed.

C) because it would create an entity that can be very profitable for some people.

America right now is severely divided racially, politically, sexually, religiously, we're even making shit up to divide us even further. We are right on that edge of global suicide. We're killing ourselves while AI (artificial intelligence) is evolving past us with lightning speed, WITH OR WITHOUT US. 

Our focus right now should be on learning how to get past our differences instead of fighting or running from one another.

LWH2021©

Self Sabotaging Blame Game

People need to stop giving others advice and telling them  it's time to leave a relationship or worse, some action to take against the person they are involved with. 

The only thing we know about a person or the one they are in a relationship with is that one of them may be asking us for advice, like how will they know when is it time to leave that relationship. Just because they are asking that question or looking for answers doesn't automatically mean the relationship is over. In order for us to accurately answer that question for someone, we would need to go live in the relationship for long enough time to know when, why or even if anyone should leave. I say anyone because we could possibly end up seeing that the person coming to us looking for answers is actually the one causing problems. We may want to tell the other person to get away from this person who's blaming them, but we don't do that and never should. If I can give a person advice or tell them what decision to make, then go home, sit in my recliner and have to never suffer any consequences from that, then I should never be the one making the decision. It's like telling someone to jump off a 100 ft. cliff into the water and not knowing if the water is actually deep enough. If you aren't going to jump first then you have no right telling someone else its safe.

Just because a person asked a question about when do you know when a relationship is over, does not mean it's over now and time to go.  Stop telling this people what to do in their relationships. 

Being unhappy, feeling unloved, unwanted, jealous, suspicious, used, neglected, unappreciated or all of the above are not immediate reasons to leave a relationship unless you, yourself, are 100% sure that you are emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically, financially and egotistically healthy and of sound mind which I doubt any one of us are. At any given time we will be struggling in at least one or more of those areas. We aren't perfect beings. Any one of those things or any combination of those being screwed up with us could project onto the other person. For example if we bring trust issues from a past relationship into a new one, we could cause that person to withdraw or start acting differently which in turn makes us suspicious so we now have this domino effect going on untill we're at each other's throats and packing. We would most likely be blaming the other person, oblivious to anything we are doing wrong, but all along the problems in the relationship are because we never dealt with the baggage from the last relationship.

A person, even ourselves could be suffering from any number of things, depression, PTSD, mid life crisis, post partum, anxiety, physical pain, grief, paranoia or stress. Ending a relationship that one or more of these negative defects has reared its ugly head in may or may not resolve those problems and could actually make things worse. 

I can say this, if the ones involved in the relationship aren't BOTH willing to talk, do some type of personal inventory, together do an inventory on the relationship and get to the bottom of what's going on, so at least you'll know what needs to change and the parties involved are BOTH willing to put effort into seeing that change come about, then it most likely would never work anyway.

Love is more than being happy, laughing, enjoying someone's presence in your life or everything being perfect. Sometimes love is despising the person your with but willing to lower your expectations for a minute, raise your level of acceptance and support them through the process of changing the behaviors that made you despise them to begin with. Sometimes love is being willing to look at your own shortcomings and willing to make changes yourself. Love isn't always about giving and receiving, sometimes it's about sacrificing and learning to accept help. Even if you end of separating yourself from this person, you can still be there for them. Humility, compassion and forgiveness are just as much for our enemies as they are for those we accept. We don't have to be infatuated with a person in order to be kind or to help them.

If we don't soon get ahold of this human condition, golden rule, love thy neighbor, brothers keeper, all lives matter, unconditional love shit, our future as an evolving species isn't looking too good. We are divided along every line imaginable right now, racially, politically, sexually, religiously, we're even making shit up to divide is even further. We are right on that edge of global suicide. We're killing ourselves while AI (artificial intelligence) is evolving past us with lightning speed, WITH OR WITHOUT US. Our focus right now should be on learning how to get past our differences instead of fighting or running from one another.

LWH2021

PULL the PLUG

  Imagine you walk out of your home and suddenly you're attacked by a swarm of bees,  you take off running to your car, get in, doors shut, windows up, you're safe.  No... too late, you've been stung many times. You're allergic, face is swollen,  hard to breathe, you can't talk or yell for help, you start the car and head for the ER. By now your airway swollen, can't breathe. You pass out, run off the road, flip your car several times, head trauma, broken neck, now paralyzed and in a coma. Keep reading... 

  

At the hospital,  your family comes in, sad but they now have to make a decision, keep you on life support or pull the plug? No one wants the burden of taking care of you. You can't stay in the hospital, cant afford a caretaker or nursing home. You still could possibly recover but you aren't given a chance. They decided to not risk it and pull the plug. 

  

Hind sight is 20/20 but too late for all that. You knew the bees were there, but you didn't take precaution"... You know youre allergic to bees but you don't carry an epi pen. You have an older car without air bags, you don't wear your seat belt. You have nothing written that tells your family or doctors what your wishes are in such a situation. You pretty much fucked yourself but it's no longer your decision. Someone else has now decided to terminate your life "to keep you from suffering" .

 Is it fair? Let's make it a law that says anyone this happens to we pull the plug. From now on we decide it's much easier to just pull the life support. Even if you're showing signs of improvement,  we can't take the risk, pull the plug.

Society doesn't work that way because that could be any one of us on life support. Too many want the chance to fight. Too many don't want to be without their loved ones. No one would ever or let me say no one in their right mind would ever choose to end they're before given a chance to make it better. So society goes after the things that cause this situation and attack those. We make cars safer, science developed antidotes and epi pens. We have exterminators to get rid of hornets and wasps. Rather than attack the victim, we decided to go after the things that created the victim. Why? because we can defend ourselves and prevent things from happening to us. We aren't imprisoned somewhere that we can't defend or help ourselves.

 Accidents still happen, things out of our control. In those situations can we still pull the plug without giving you a chance? Please, please! I mean what if you're a vegetable the rest of your life? That means someone has the burden of taking care of you, but it's not about us it's about you. You would be unpleasant. You could even be abused. We should just pull the plug so you don't suffer.

 

but NOOO, you still have some rights. If you're breathing and heart beating... even though you can't respond to us, if we kill you it's murder. We have to take care of you and give you the chance to recover.

What if we did that with babies? What if we attacked the causes and not the victim? What if we put all of our efforts into preventing the pregnancy BEFORE it happens rather than TERMINATING it after it happens?

 Make penalties very severe for rape, put more effort into finding what makes people commit rape and stop it. Research better, more convenient methods of birth control, better educate children on birth control, work on bringing families back together and discourage single parenting rather than reward it. Work toward having healthy relationships. Instill values in our kids where we don't have so many unwanted or teen pregnancies, teach love and not hate, create self esteem instead of selfishness, adhere to principles like all life is precious, not one above the other. Ban toxic chemicals that cause birth defects, better regulations on corporations that use these chemicals, end political careers of people who allow these things, get back control of our lives, our environment, the air we breathe, the water we drink, the food we eat, how we interact with one another, raise responsible adults instead of spoiled little assholes.  Get back to the ideals of wanting to start a family of your own. Have goals, have standards, principles and values.  Know who you want to start that family with stop settling for less. Wait and plan for the baby, be there, nurture and raise the child letting it know it can be anything it wants to be. Teach it to be loving and caring, give it value and morals. 

Why don't we go after and focus on these things instead of an innocent, defenseless human life?

Why? because it's so much easier to just jerk it out, cut it up, throw it away, go home, pop a pain pill and start texting away telling friends the trauma you just had to go thru and get a little needed attention.

I'm sure you will say that's stupid, it's not the same and has nothing to do with abortion. In ways it's isn't the same but in some ways it is. The main difference is that we will put effort into saving our own ass but don't give two shits about anybody else, especially an ugly, slimy, half cooked embryo we never met.  Sad that there are those that will never open their mind enough to see another side. People name all these consequences resulting from the birth of an unwanted baby, things it will pay the price for. Things like addiction, birth defects, childhood trauma, etc. Then those are the things we should be eliminating and finding solutions for rather than accepting those things and terminate an innocent baby.

 I've heard the argument about pregnancies where the mother is in danger, the baby dies in the womb and how it's a woman's body. Well, only a little over 7 percent of abortions are for those reasons people use when arguing in support of abortion. The other 92 percent of abortions are for unwanted pregnancies. As for it being a woman's body, it's not her body that's being aborted and thrown away. If it were I bet that woman would be making an entirely different decision. Just because you have been in existence longer than the baby inside you, do you think that makes your life more precious or deserving? If you do and you ever find yourself in a situation where emergency teams are calling for women and children first to be saved, if you don't give your seat away to any gentleman that is older than you, then you are a hypocrite.

The entire argument is an issue of priorities, misplaced or not, for both sides of the argument whether anyone cares to see that or not. Every decision made in the whole process from the before the first child was ever conceived to until we figure this shit out and get it under control is nothing but priorities or what happens to be the most important to the person in charge of making the decision.

Out of positive thoughts and positive actions come positive results.

LWH 2021 

I am

I recently read something where a woman was arrested at a local church. Curious as to what someone would do at a church to warrant the church calling to have the woman arrested and taken off the premises, I had to find out.

Digging a little deeper I came across a YouTube video this woman had made telling her side of the story which is the only side I ever heard.

After watching the video, it seems this lady had a vision from God come to get one night. Listening to the lady, it wasn't hard to determine that she is very dedicated in her practice of her religion and a belief in God. She attended this church service with her family every Sunday and seemed to put a lot of faith in the pastor and sermons, so much so that she felt it compelling to tell the pastor about this "message" she had received from God. After several attempts at contacting the pastor via phone, text and email with no success, she decides to go by the church office one day. After waiting in the office for some time, she was allowed into the office of an associate pastor who was familiar with her situation. She never said in the video what the message entailed so at this point I have no idea if it was something worth hearing or something completely crazy. The associate pastor and anyone else who was familiar with the situation had obviously determined that what she needed to tell the main pastor of the church was not important enough for her to be allowed to have a visit with him. My first response to that was how odd it seemed for a person to be denied meeting with her pastor regardless of what the meeting wear about but also how at this point the leaders of the church had obviously determined what she had to say nobody there wanted to hear it and she was asked to leave. 

She left with reservation and at this point somewhat upset about how she had been denied seeing her pastor. I probably would have been also but she was to the point of thinking it was her right to see him as if it were something she bought and paid for, most likely because she claimed she was a member and tithed regularly. I'm not a member of a church nor do I tithed regularly to a church so I don't know how that actually works as far as any rights you may have. She however felt she had the right and was determined to see the pastor.

I think at this point it had now become a mission of simply seeing the pastor and less important her reason for seeing him. She stated she went to church services the following Sunday and according to her, she made her usual entrance and yes she has a specific way she enters the church because of her enthusiasm with worshipping God. It was after hearing this that my thinking started to shift from being on her side to thinking maybe the church wasn't so harsh in their decisions about what or not to allow this woman on the property at all.

Apparently when she gets to church she becomes excited or filled with the holy spirit. She makes it a point to go down the aisles and high five everyone and share her excitement. She has her place on the front row where she can show her dedication and be heard. Well before she could make it to her usual place on the front row she was greeted by a young lady who asked her to walk out to the lobby where they could talk in private and not disturb others. The woman denied and asked the young lady who she was and why. From the ladies tone she had at this point in the video telling her side, I could tell that things weren't going to go well from there. Long story short, she was escorted out of the church in handcuffs and taken away.

Now I wasn't there so I can't say one way or the other who was right or wrong. I assume she never got to see the pastor or give him this message she had gotten from God. I do know she's not done though and at this point it's become more about giving the public her message about how she has been treated and not do much about telling anyone about the message from God. This is my opinion on that, as far as letting others know about something I believe in or feel strongly about. How far to I have a right to go to make sure others hear that message.

Myself nor anyone else has verifiable proof in the existence of God or a God. There are over 4000 different religions in the world, not one of them is more credible than the other. That makes religion, practicing a certain religion or worshipping a certain God a personal choice. It's a personal choice to attend a church or Sunday service.

 People attend for many reasons. The pastor at any church is there to share his interpretation of the God he chooses to worship. It is a person's personal choice whether or not to hear that message. Just because a person feels that their God has spoken to them, that doesn't mean they now have a right to force that message  onto others. They have a right to share their message in a place that doesn't cause disruption to others to whoever wants to hear it and makes a personal choice to do so but no one is obligated in any way where they must hear what someone had to say.

 

 This lady attended this church to hear that pastor each week share the message he received from the God he worshipped, but he is in no way obligated to hear her message. He may not believe in a God that has spoken to her and she has no right to force that on him or anyone else. Was it rude that he nor any of his staff bother to hear what she had to say? I think so. To me that's not appropriate or Christian like behavior, which Christianity happened to be the religion everyone involved claimed to practice. If she would have been treated differently in the beginning and had the pastor at least replied to her in some way, I think all the disruption leading up to the woman being arrested could have been avoided.

Still, I don't know what this message was that this lady apparently received from God. During her video she kept referring to God as him and speaking in a way that "he" regularly tells her what to do. That scares me in a way because someone with that strong of a belief and determination can be also just as determined in their efforts to carry out the wishes of this God, doing what "he" tells them to do.

I personally believe there is a higher power that is responsible for all creation. It is not a him or her. I believe it is a collective power where we do not exist without it and it cannot exist without us. The bible says when God created man, it was stated "let us create man in our own image". The power that I believe in is verified by that statement. We exist because of this power and this power exists in us.

  It was stated to Moses when he asked "who shall I tell them gave me these commandments?" He was told "tell them I am". If you believe in the Trinity then you believe that God is the Father, the son and the holy spirit so therefore Jesus was God on earth in human form. When asked if he was God, he stated "just know me as I am".

So you see, according to the bible and how a in person interprets it, God can be much more than a "him" in heaven.

 God is a name given to this power in Christianity. There are several names given to this power but none claimed by this power. It was given to us as "I am" . We were created in the image of "we are". We are to believe in "I am" and I  have the same as " we are". 

 

I gain power through a firm belief and faith in Jesus who testified to be the same as I am. I am as he, he is as I am. Everyone is as I am.

We are all created in Gods image, we are told to be like Jesus, it is only through Jesus and our belief in what he has given us that we can achieve our true purpose. It's as if this power some call God came to earth in it's pure form as an example of what we are supposed to be, to show us what we are truly capable of and told this is the only way to get to that place from where we came, to become one with this power, to share in all it has to offer us. No tests, no tasks, nothing to do other than an unwaivering belief and faith that all things are possible. We are I am.

 With that said, my belief is this power doesn't communicate with us because we already have all the knowledge we need.  We may have had an awakening to this knowledge or a revelation and we are more than welcome to share it with anyone willing to listen, hoping to give them a new or better understanding. That does not mean that my revelation was meant for me like I'm special. I am not or was not chosen. No one is chosen. We are all the same, with the same knowledge, the same capabilities and it's up to us how we decide to use it but other catch is there is only one right way. We are shown this way through Jesus.

 

 This power was placed on the earth in human form as Jesus Christ and we were told if we believe in him, believe what was shown to us, live, worship and have faith just as Jesus did then we will also be everlasting just as he is. We were told that whoever believes will be as I am. That is each and every person's sole purpose on this earth, to simply believe and be as I am, told that when we do we will never have a need or want for anything, will  never fear anything, never hurt or suffer and we will live eternally. 

 

That is the only message we need to share. The only revelation is the knowledge of this message. A prophet can only share this message because there is no other message. A preachers purpose is to share with us spiritual principles and ways to live our life than align with solely living and sharing that message. 

LWH 2021

Fool me once.....

Think about this and yeah it's long as usual but still....

 It's a known fact that the Obama Administration was funding research on a strain of Coronavirus right here in the US, in NC at Duke to be exact. Congress shut it down cutting budget as unnecessary. It was then given a 3 million dollar grant to go over seas to China and continue. First, why research or try to develop a new strain of super virus? 

Forward ahead several years and a new strain of Coronavirus gets loose in China, coincidentally in the same area the research from the US was moved to. They think possibly in an outdoor cafe next to the facility where research was conducted. A research facility with several safety measures in place that make it almost impossible for a virus to escape.

 It just so happened to be an election year here and during one of the most economically sound times the US has seen in years. Tough for an incoming opponent in an election to win. Seeing how the virus was spreading overseas, the president tried to shut down our borders and stop everything coming into the country but was forced to wait, criticized by the democrats and media. When he finally did close the borders, he was still met with resistance from the left and the media. After a couple months and seeing he acted too late, the virus here and spreading, the tone changed, the democrats and the media now blasting the president saying he acted too late. Seems to me they were more worried about making the president out to be the blame for everything happening than they were about our welfare. Good election strategy.

As time went by we kept getting conflicting advice from the CDC and WHO. Masks don't stop the spread, wear your masks, only wear this type of mask, any face covering will work. Everyone must wear a mask, members of Congress not wearing a mask. Media showing footage of hospitals overseas making it appear as if our hospitals were overflowing when they were empty. Doctors order to list all deaths that were not accidental or self inflicted to be listed as Covid 19 as the cause of death. Now we will never know how many actually died from covid-19.

Months in, many doctors now coming forward saying that it's no worse than the flu and we only need to take the same precautions. Still we are quarantined and all business except those deemed essential are shut down. Those not shut down were the largest and wealthiest of big corporations such as WalMart, Home Depot, Amazon, etc. We were told to social distance and made to stand in single file lines outside those businesses but once inside could move about freely. Doesn't make much sense.

 Businesses were limited in hours they were open, no longer 24 hour shopping meaning more people trying to shop within a now 8 hour time span. Once spread out over 24 hours now grouped together in 8 making it much easier to contract the virus. Doesn't make much sense.

Small business now closing, going out of business, millions out on of work and on government assistance. America is slowly beginning to get the majority of the population on government dependancy.

Several doctors now coming forward along with people who had the virus and got thru it, saying hydroxychloroquine was all that was needed but CDC doctors reporting that wasn't true and the media agreeing with them despite the evidence otherwise. Strange too how then hydroxychloroquine suddenly became hard to get and doctors told not to subscribe it. Strange how doctors can say early on the they found something that works and they had the proof but the media and the government are doing everything they can to prove then wrong and instead push forward on developing a vaccine that isn't necessary. Doesn't make much sense.

Having sympathy for those who lost loved ones,  it still needs to be brought to attention and pointed out how the virus is only really dangerous to those that are weak because of either age, compromised immune systems or some other type of disability. Everyone else is a 98 percent survival rate.

 So once the virus has spread and the majority of those people at risk have contracted the virus and most likely died, a vaccine that doesn't prevent you from getting the virus and still spreading it, is "developed" and given to those remaining that have a 98 percent survival rate if they do catch it. Doesn't make sense.

 Millions of people who may have never come in contact with the virus are now carriers of a virus that will never go away. A vaccine that is untested, the drug companies granted immunity from any side effects, even death that results from the vaccine now or at any time in the future. No liability whatsoever.

 Who knows what's to come but we do know the virus is here to stay now. It will continue to take out the weak and compromised. That's a lot of social security benefits and disability checks the government will no longer have to send out. Things starting to make sense now?

Social platforms now involved limiting and censoring what people say. Debunking and reporting as false anything that goes against the narrative. Trying to stop anyone or anything that tries to or comes close to making any sense of what's happening. I'm sure this will hit the radar.

Forward ahead a year and because of the smoke screen from the virus all over the news, all the attacks on the previous president , we now have a president who didn't campaign, has still not given a State of the Union address, does not answer media questions and is making changes that create even more government dependancy, not to mention he won the election with more votes than people who voted... Supposedly.

 It's not right but it's making sense if you're seeing it from where I'm seeing it.

and fast forward to present, during a week when there were supposed to be court hearings on voter fraud and vote tampering on the west coast there just so happens to be a cyber attack on a major oil pipeline on the east coast. No leak, no spill, no shortage of oil in any way other than slowing down the process and time of getting gasoline to the pumps. We probably would have never noticed but rather than report on the election fraud on the west coast, the media reports of a possible gas shortage at the pumps causing a panic with all the "Karen's" on the east coast hoarding gas.... CREATING a shortage just long enough for no one to hear or talk about the election fraud, skillfully keeping America divided.

Think about it. People if you don't think we are all being played for the fools that we are, you are the problem.

Don't you just love conspiracy theories and propaganda. I do. #sarcasm

LWH2021

Lizard People

I hate to even use the word "sheep" to describe the group of people I'm getting ready to talk about because it would be offensive to sheep. I'm talking about those people who blindly follow, will believe anything you tell them and never break a rule. You tell them social distance at 6 feet, the fucker has tape measure in hand. Not 5'11" and not 6'1", they at 6' and checking you when you aren't looking.

 To say that humans are the most advanced organism on the planet is getting to the point of being questionable.

 These last couple of years have revealed a side of the human race, a BIG side, that somewhere along the way took a wrong turn, either that or they're drinking some bad water, ate something spoiled, dropped on their head as a child, shit it's anybody's guess at this point but the times have revealed a whole shitload of people operating on a different frequency than the rest of us.

I'm beginning to wonder if the human race has come to a fork in that path of evolution where we are seeing a new race of people. Since we no longer live by the rule that only the strong survive and we somehow got around the whole natural order of selection process where now every known defect, abnormality or genetic flaw is being reintroduced back into the population because everyone is protected, able and allowed to reproduce. I can only imagine what stupid looks like breeding. 

I'm not really a conspiracy theorist, I mean I played around with the flat earth thing for a minute just for fun, but Bush knew about the planes and Oswald wasn't the shooter so I know shit happens. The government just admitted to us not long ago that we have supposedly known for quite some time that aliens from other planets do actually exist, maybe it's some kind of alien experiment being conducted on humans. Maybe it's a result of aliens breeding with humans and these idiots are the result. Maybe the fuckers are aliens in disguise. If that's the case then somebody dropped them off here like an abandoned baby on a doorstep because there is no way in hell if this crowd is from another planet that they got here across the universe on their own, ain't no fucking way. The fuckers try to rescue possums like they stray cats and wonder how come deer don't cross the road where deer crossing signs are so they don't get hit. They would have stopped a thousand times to rescue something, anything just floating along in space. They have to stop. It's not conceivable to them to just ignore it and keep going. They have to get involved, the finger has to be pointed at somebody. They were left here. Herded like "sheep", put on a space bus and dropped of here at 4am when nobody was looking. Somebody was tired of their shit.

 They an organized crowd with their groups with initials. It starts with the HOA, then they got the PTA, PPS, GSA and BSA. They get a little bigger and more control with PETA, CLUW and AFL-CIO. They big time and make big money keeping racism alive and division among us with the NAACP, ACLU, BLM and ANTIFA.  They quick to the draw too when opportunity arises. Bitches got 911 on speed dial and apparently they have a direct line to CNN, ABC, MSNBC, CBS and NBC. The first alert to any slight  in the normal day to day affairs and these fuckers are on it. They bought up all the toilet paper three different times now, all the cleaning products, hand sanitizers, weather radios, batteries, those God Forsaken MASKS and now gasoline!

Jesus fucking Christ people. Give me a sign or some kind of heads-up when y'all about to do this shit! I'm riding along minding my own business, trying to STAY in MY LANE and next thing I know there's 120 cars and one moped lined up at QT waiting to get gas and I'm sitting there trying to ask Google assistant what the fuck I missed. Did we get bombed? , another virus?  Biden finally fell over? ... What happened Google? 

Finally Google says I found this on the web and spits up a page about a pipeline....

Jesus Christ! A. god damn pipeline got cyber attacked, it didn't break or spring a leak. We still have just as much oil as we had yesterday except now we can't get gas to the stores because there's 120 cars and that fuckin moped blocking the truck from getting in.

Well I know this...  this new breed of humans or aliemans or I'll just call them "Knots" as in not right, knot heads, not from here, not thinking about anyone but themselves, they all hang out on the Nextdoor app. You can see them in action there daily. Let one of the fuckers see a dog not on a leash and Karen is on it like old Avon on a blue hair church lady. Poor animal is being abused they say, probably never had his ass wiped properly, nobody picking up it's shit. Another Karen and Ken are forming a sub committee amongst the HOA to raise awareness, the poor animal is lucky to be alive, it didn't even have it's mask on. 247 comments on one thread about that damn dog.

 Lord don't let one see a litter of rabbits or a fawn, they got Chopper Nine, PETA and Eye Witness News on scene, Karen's got her husband in a hazmat suit trying to lure them in with carrots and not get human scent on them. She read that in her monthly wildlife newsletter. They are fucking crazy people

Good God almighty people. I can't take it anymore. Leave the dogs and other animals alone. You're not rescuing anything. You're baiting, luring in and capturing an animal minding it's own business, STAYING IN IT'S LANE and ultimately sending it to it's death when you can't find someone to adopt it. While I'm at it, stop calling it a fucking forever home. Gay ass shit. If it was forever then the shelters wouldn't be full of captured animals that were trying to get back to the only home they know.

JESUS!... Where are the fucking dinosaurs when you need one. Let Karen rescue a stray velociraptor, poor thing was  probably abandoned we'll tell her. That'll put a stop to this shit real quick.

LWH2021

Christmas Past

Remember the days when Christmas was Christmas? None of this Politically correct, Retail Holiday crap we have today. 

It would start on Thanksgiving, granddaddy would  get the decorations from the attic, a nativity scene to put in the front yard, 3 foot tall plastic figurines with Mary and Joseph, three wise men, baby Jesus in a manger, all lite up, bales of hay all around making it look like a barn stall.

 Then up on the ladder stringing those lights with big ass blue, red, green and yellow bulbs hanging from the gutters. Spend all day trying to find the one that was burnt out keeping all the others from coming on.

Inside was that ugly ass shiny aluminum Christmas tree. It had the spinning wheel that sat beneath it with a light shining through a colored disc and everytime a different color would come around the tree would change colors.

Decorations all around the house sitting on every table, stockings hung on the fireplace, tinsel on every doorway, big plastic candles as tall as I was would light up at night sitting outside by the front door.

Every time the doors were open at church we had to be there, Sunday morning, Sunday night, Wednesday night. There was a youth group for the kids. We had to go all month long and practice singing Christmas carols. I guess when they thought we were ready, we would all pile on the church bus, didn't know where we were going but singing the whole way. We would get there and would have to be real quiet getting off the bus, sneak around to these peoples front yard, cold as shit, blowing your breath into your hands trying to keep your fingers from freezing and falling off, huddled up, somebody whispering "are you ready"  and then somebody whispering "not yet" , curtains pulling back and people peeking out the window then you hear someone say "go ahead". Somebody would walk up on the front porch, knock on the door, then when the door opened we would start into "Silver Bells". All that month of practicing it was time to show em what we got. People would start coming out on the front porch wrapped up in blankets and winter coats, they would roll somebody out the front door in a wheelchair pointing at us trying to get them to look at us, like they couldn't hear us, by now on to "Rudolph" already sang frosty the snowman. After what seemed like an hour and things were getting awkward, people on the porch been waving for 10 minutes, every one froze solid we would slow it down and go into Silent Night. A kid would walk up on the porch and try to hand a bag of fruit to the person in the wheel chair who didn't even know they were still alive. Finally the kid would sit the fruit in their lap and somebody would yell "back to the bus". We would all run for the bus to try and be first so you could get back seat. If you got the back seat then the two prettiest girls would sit with you and you would be the cool kid.

One night during the week you would have to get dressed up and momma would take you to Park Rd shopping center because that's where the North Pole was and Santa lived. You would stand in line outside in the freezing cold again waiting to get to the front where you had to sit on Santa's lap and tell him what you wanted for Christmas while these elves took your picture. Apparently you had to do it or you wouldn't get any presents.

On Christmas Eve morning you'd hear all these sirens blasting first instinct was to jump on your bike to run catch the firetrucks to see who's house was on fire. Then you remember Santa always comes through town riding on the back of one and throwing candy. He must of been eating that candy cause he looked a whole lot fatter than last week when I sat on his lap. Something just never seem right with him. You could hear him going "ho ho ho" through the speaker on the front of the firetruck but his mouth never moved and he always looked like he been drinking.

 I couldn't ever figure out why we always had to go to bed early Christmas Eve because if we stayed up Santa wouldn't come. We weren't allowed to see him. If we saw him he would disappear and we wouldn't get presents but we just sat on his fucking lap two weeks ago. He knows us. Seemed to be a whole lot of stipulations on whether or not you got presents.

We would go to bed though and wait and listen to see if we could hear something. We waited and waited and waited then finally see a light come on down the hallway. It would stay on for a few minutes and then go out. We would sneak outta bed and tiptoe down the hallway, peak around the corner hoping to see a new BIG Wheel sitting there but wouldn't be a damn thing. Then you hear momma yell "go back to bed". You would probably do that three or four times until you fell asleep then all of a sudden you would wake up thinking oh shit I fell asleep, go running down the hallway, peek around the corner and HELL YEAH! There sat that BIG Wheel. After checking everything out you go wake everybody up.

 Gotta get up! Santa came! Oh baby go back to bed, "it's too early, Santa might not come if he knows you're up". Haha! That shit ain't working no more. Santa done come. GET UP! My Lord Bobby he's already seen the presents. What time is it. It's 4:30... GET UP! ok give me a minute, go wake your sister up. Screw that. You go running straight for the BIG wheel. You be riding that thing around the kitchen table, down the hallway through the living room around the coffee table back to the kitchen. You already got a track set up by the time everybody gets up.

Momma gets up and starts cooking breakfast. .. call down to granddaddy's house and telling them... "He's up. Yes I tried to get him to go back to bed but he already seen the BIG Wheel. Yes I got coffee going and I'm making breakfast now. Ok I'll see you in a minute".

You on lap 500 around the track, by now the kitchen is blocked off, can't go in there. Sucks because that's where the slick floors are and you can get a good drift around the table but that's ok because you wore out anyway.

About that time g'mama and g'daddy come in and you sitting on the BIG Wheel in turn 4 sound asleep drooling out the side of your mouth with a football helmet on, still in pajamas and wearing a new pair of Dingos..... Everybody else is awake now. Done had 2 cups of coffee, wide awake. They trying to wake you up to show mawmaw and paw paw what Santa brought you but no luck. Thirty minutes power nap later you up, ripping through wrapping paper, turtle neck sweater... Never wear it... Next..  new coat... Nothing wrong with my old one, new church shoes. .. come on people... Santa wasn't paying attention when I was giving him my list but dressed and out the door I go with the BIG Wheel, momma yelling from the kitchen "don't mess up your new coat and stay out of the street! " Down the driveway you go, sliding sideways into the street and down you go headed for the big hill.

Them days are gone. 

LWH2020

How we communicate

They say one thing that separates modern humans from everything else including our "cave man" ancestors is our development of a symbolic system of communication. In other words we learned to use spoken words, written words and symbols to communicate instead of grunts or hitting someone over the head with a club.

If you want my opinion, I agree it's for sure something that separates us from everything else but not so much in a good way. 

Words, the things we say to one another can and do often get misunderstood, taken out of context and used to lie or deceive. The things we write are forever. They can be looked up and used over and over for good or bad purposes. Symbols are sometimes used as things to separate us from one another and also to identify us, not always with good intentions.

This symbolic system of communication meant to be an advancement in our evolution has had and still has as much of a negative impact as it does a positive one on the human species. 

When we evolve further and learn that some traits we pick up along the line aren't always for the better or we learn to drop the negative aspects, using them in only positive ways, is when we will start to make progress once again in reaching our full potential.

Non verbal communication already makes up the majority of our communication anyway, we just don't realize it. How many times have you been looking at someone's body language and not hearing so much what they were saying but just on the way they were acting, you knew they were lying? Have you ever gotten a look from across the room and knew exactly what they were trying to tell you just from their facial expression alone? Have you ever gotten a simple wave or been blown a kiss and it was better than anything they could have said to you? Giving a stern look to a child often does more than any scolding or punishment you could give them.

We rely more on these unspoken words more than we realize. We know when someone isn't being honest with us, but we rarely say anything. Instead we will keep it to ourselves, letting them think they got away with it, then get a resentment from it. Usually making us not trust the person anymore. It may have been they were just too embarrassed to tell us that truth and not necessarily meant to intentionally deceive us or hurt us but since we don't say anything we'll never know. 

On the other side, we will still use words to try and get away with something or deceive someone, forgetting that 99 percent of the time it's obvious to the other person what we are doing. We do it anyway, they won't say anything, we think we got away with it but then wonder why they aren't talking to us anymore.

There's a right time and a wrong time for words. It seems too often that we say more or speak longer than we should, we try to comfort with words when a simple hug would have been better, we get frustrated with continually telling someone how much they mean to us when what we really need to be doing is showing them by spending time with them.

We need to stop using words so much and start doing or showing. Don't just tell someone you care about them, show them. Don't just tell those close to you that you love them, show them. Don't just tell someone that you are there for them if they need you, be there for them regardless. Don't wait on someone to ask you for help, help them without them having to ask.

When we start communicating with each other more through actions instead of words is when we will get to that next level. It's when we will start understanding each other and what we are trying to say instead of misunderstanding. It's when we will stop lying to ourselves and to each other and start being honest. It's when we will start being more accepting and less expecting, trusting and less suspicious, more helpful and less hurtful. We will start living a more peaceful life, in harmony with one another, understanding our true purpose or meaning rather than a life of routine, slaves to a system feeling lost and misunderstood. 

SHOW someone today that you care about them. 

SHOW someone today that you love them. 

SHOW someone today that you have their back and are there for them.

SHOW someone today how much they mean to you.

Also, remember as parents, we aren't raising kids, we're raising adults. Show your children how adults act, don't tell them. Stop with the "do as I say not as I do" mentality. Show them how to be happy with themselves, don't describe it to them. Show them how to keep their room clean, pick up their messes and respect things that belong to others, don't just tell them to. Show them you are proud of them, instead of just telling them. Show them where they went wrong and the right way to do it, don't tell them.

I was told once that I  may be the only example of an adult that my child ever sees then asked if I was proud of what they were seeing and how I would feel if it were the other way around.

 Pay attention to and put more importance on what you are showing those you love and care about and less on what you are telling them. Hell, just make it a habit to do it with everyone in your life. It shouldn't matter how well you know them or if you'll ever see then again. Everyone deserves the same respect until they SHOW you otherwise... 

LWH2020

Growing up

At a certain point, hopefully right now, we need to grow up. We need to listen to that voice of reason inside of us. We need to trust it.

We know everything there is to know about ourselves, the thing is that there is much that we don't want to know. 

We know deep down that there are things in our life that are working and there are things that aren't working. There are functional things and dysfunctional things. 

It's human nature to not want to look at those things that aren't working. We pretend they aren't there or we convince ourselves that we can fix them.

Growing up is about having the courage to face those things we are in conflict with. We can take a self inventory if we are unsure. The main thing is that we bring them to the light. We see them for what they are, we own them and we get rid of them by confessing them to someone else and asking God to help us get rid of them. 

It takes willingness, faith, courage and trust but in the end the freedom we gain is worth it. 

We are free to be ourselves. No longer chained to old behaviors. We no longer have to wear masks. We no longer have to accept being treated less than.

 We gain humility, knowing we are no longer less than but remembering that we are no better than. We are all equal and we make mistakes but having grown up, we now learn from those mistakes rather than continue to repeat them. 

When I feel like I'm at a dead end road in life, I'm getting nowhere or going in circles, that's not the time to just give up but it is time to surrender. Surrender my will, my way of doing things. It's time for a change. It's time to grow up. 

Growing up means maturing, allowing ourselves to be taught, being willing to take an honest look at ourselves, owning what we see both good and bad, learning from our mistakes, admitting when we're wrong then trying to make things right and making an effort to continue doing these things.  When we do that circle will straighten out, we'lll get off of that Dead end Street and start living life again but this time a life worth living.

LWH 2020

Five rules for men to follow to a happy life

1. It's important to have a woman who helps at home, cooks from time to time, cleans up and has a job. 

2. It's important to have a woman who can make you laugh and enjoys being with you.

3. It's important to have a woman you can trust, who doesn't lie to you.

4. It's important to have a woman who takes care of herself and she's good in bed. 

5. It's very, very, VERY IMPORTANT, that these four women do not know each other. 

LWH2020

Life is a choice

Life can be anything you want it to be. It's about having faith. Faith isn't about wishing and hoping, faith is about knowing 100% that whatever you need you will get and not worrying or thinking anymore about it. You have to believe and trust. Anything less, any doubt, it will never happen. The moment you start saying I need this, I need that, nobody cares about me or life is always going to be this way, then that's exactly how it will always be. There is a universal law of attraction, God or whatever you want to call it that knows all your desires and will give you anything you want. It's a universal law just like gravity, what goes up must come down. The universe is full of these laws that happen in our lives every day without us even realizing it. They happen 100%, one hundred percent of the time without fail. If you can think it you can have it, but not if you are anything less than 100% trusting and knowing that you will get it. Any doubt and all you will ever have is a want or a need for whatever it is that you desire most. 

Every morning that you wake up you have a choice of what you want from life but only if you believe it and live it. If you want to be the happiest person in the world, start living your life as if you were the happiest person in the world already and you will become the happiest person in the world. If you don't want any struggles, live your life like you don't have any struggles and your life will become struggle free. If your health is bad, live your life like you don't have any health issues and you will become healthy but nothing will come true if you don't believe it will.

 Life is a choice. Every person is who they are because that is exactly who they strive to be or they believe that's all they will ever be. 

LWH 2020

Gratitude

Gratitude is a thing, being grateful is an action. There is a difference.

We can be grateful or thankful for blessings in our life but those feelings are usually temporary. 

Gratitude is a way of living that encompasses many things such as respect, forgiveness, faith, courage, humility, patience, willingness, acceptance and unconditional love. When I live with gratitude I'm in harmony with everything around me. 

I can be grateful for many things but if I'm not living in gratitude I'm living in self-centeredness which puts me in conflict with everything around me.

I have to remember to not only be grateful for even the small things but to live in gratitude for everything. 

LWH2020©️

Ten absolute truths we must come to terms with to be ok:

Ten absolute truths we all must eventually come to terms with.....

1. Everyone doesn't have a heart as big as yours. 

.....Love unconditionally and give without expectation.

2. You will not get closure in every situation. 

....If you must have it, make it for yourself by letting go

3. No response is a response.

 ......Silence speaks louder than words. Hear what it is saying and quietly walk away...

4. You cannot change people no matter how hard you try. 

....You can let them be or move on.

5. Some people will not hear you regardless of how loud you speak, how caring and loving your tone or how eloquently you say it.

..... Listen to what that is telling you

6. If they wanted to they would. 

....Never chase or beg anyone

7. Some people will hold grudges against you for shit they did.

 ....You'll never vindicate it. Accept it and move on

8. The way they treat you is how they see you.

..... Know your worth.

9. If it keeps happening and they admit it,  it's a behavioral trait. If it becomes a pattern, they deny it and continue to do it, it's a tool. 

...Walk away, you don't need fixing 

10. No one will ever respect you if you don't respect yourself.

.... Treat yourself the way you want others to treat you and they will.

LWH2020©️

Was it me or you?

Most often when we have someone in our life that's toxic, when we manage to get away from that person we thank God for removing them from our life and may even feel vindicated.

 Have you ever considered the possibility that God removed you from their life.

LWH2020©️

What it's like to be you all day

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

to see the things you see,

to hear the things you say. 

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

to have no responsibilities,

no bills to pay. 

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

to stay up all night

sometimes for days.

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

no place to be, no schedule to keep,

nothing to do but play.

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

to have no place to call home,

never knowing where you'll stay.

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

no bed of your own,

no pillow where your head can lay.

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

you don't work or have a job,

so you sleep the time away.

I wonder what it's like to be you all day

to not have any friends, no one to call and just say hey.

I wonder what it's like to be you all day,

I hope I'll never know,

the price too high to pay.

I'll tell you what I know,

I've tried helping you in so many ways,

but you take advantage of my kindness,

and then you run away.

I can't make you do anything,

I can only show you the way,

you probably won't listen,

but then again you may.

So I do what I can, but mostly I pray

and tell you that I love you,

there's not much more I can say.... 

LWH2020©️

Afraid of being Alone

You can give all you have to someone, put everything you have into making a relationship work. You can be willing to change or make sacrifices and wemay have even done just that. You may come back time and time again, trying desperately to make things work, only to get feelings hurt or to be let down once again. It doesn't always mean that you are weak, afraid to lose them or that you're afraid of being alone. It doesn't have to mean that anything is wrong with you. 

Sometimes it may simply mean that you truly care about someone, to you they are worth fighting for or putting in the extra effort. Sometimes the hurt from the past, keeps them from moving forward in the future. You could see things in them they can't see, those sometimes subtle cries for help. It could simply mean you care more for them than they care for themselves and you aren't willing to let them just give up in life, but sometimes they may already have. 

We must draw a line somewhere. There has to be a point where we can say enough. We aren't responsible for any one but ourselves. We can offer help when someone needs it, we can love others enough for us both until they can once again love themselves, we can show them what unconditional love looks and feels like but if they aren't willing to change for themselves, aren't willing to match your efforts, aren't willing to even try, we have to let them go and move on. 

There are two kinds of people who say they aren't afraid of being alone. Those who are less afraid to be alone than they are afraid of having to look at themselves and make changes in order have relationships with others. Then there are those who really aren't afraid of being alone because they know it's temporary, if they're patient that right someone is going to come along. They use the alone time to look at themselves, to grow and mature, knowing they don't have to settle. They know they are worth the wait. 

You know you tried, but at the end of the day the only happiness we are responsible for is our own. If someone is more willing to run than they are to stay and fight, let them go. Ask yourself, are you afraid of being alone or more afraid of being hurt. When you can say to yourself neither, that's when you'll find happiness. 

The Wicked at work

*DISCLAIMER : THIS VIRUS IS REAL...I AM NOT CLAIMING OTHERWISE*

1) Ask yourself why this response from the govt for covid19 and not *ANY* other virus the past 100 years. Covid19, like all viruses, attack the immune-compromised. This is unfortunate yet, it's the way viruses operate. So, while this is a different virus, it acts the same in who it takes down. 

2) Ask yourself why news stations are using hospital images from other countries yet the headlines read "overwhelmed hospital staff in New York fighting covid19." Why is the media taking clips of medical staff rolling down the hall with mannequins instead of real people? Dont take my word for it...look it up yourselves. 

3) Ask yourself why, at a time when America was experiencing solid economic health, stock & housing markets are booming, our president survived an assassination attempt via an "impeachment" trial, an election year....why was the response to a virus to shut down an entire nation? 

4) Ask yourselves why Doctors and Coroners are being directed *by our government* to lie. They are being told to pad the numbers. Why? Bc the numbers just arent supporting all this upheaval. They are being told to list all non murder deaths as covid19. Why? There are many reasons which I'll share throughout this. If you die of a heart attack, covid19. If you die of a stroke, covid19. If you die of pneumonia, covid19. That. Is. Insane. 

5) Ask yourself why patients who are placed on ventilators are dying AND ask yourself why is it that the govt put in place that no dr or hospital can be sued for wrongful death if they are a covid19 patient....AND then you will connect the dots as to why coroners and drs are being *ordered* to list all non murder deaths as covid19. The ventilators are death sentences bc the treatment is absolutely wrong. Drs are coming out sharing that high doses of *natural supplements* and oxygenation of the blood are showing a positive response in covid patients. Yet that doesn't line the pockets...and that doesn't give hospitals kickbacks.

6) Ask yourself why drs and nurses are speaking out revealing that they just arent seeing what is being reported? There are layoffs and cutting of hours bc hospitals across the nation are ghost towns...and not only in non-"hotspots."

7) Ask yourself why government authorities stand shoulder-to-shoulder from from one another, touching their faces, rubbing their eyes and noses, while demanding from the American people to socially distance, "6 feet apart and no groups larger than 10." Seriously?

😎 Brush up on history...World and American. I believe, and there is evidence abroad, that this virus was man made. Why? Because there are agendas deeply seeded within the wicked hearts of many. Power corrupts....absolute power corrupts absolutely. 

How do you control a people? 

With fear. 

When governing powers use fear, the people will surrender freedoms...willingly exchanging it for "safety." 

Study history.

9) Ask yourself if China wants another 4 years of Trump as President. Just research fair trade war...we were winning. 

10) Ask yourself why it is that Fauci is HEAVILY invested in the vaccine industry...bc the vaccine industry makes BANK. He is very close to Bill Gates...Bill Gates is, well, that's an entire post of it's own (research yourself). He is advising our entire country.

Look into the countries who are NOT listening to fear but rather choosing to go against these powers and keeping their countries open and operating. They give the information of covid and advise the immune compromised to consider staying indoors (like any other ole virus) but they are using herd immunity on the general, healthy population. Why? Bc history proves it works and guess what? It's working now. 

11) Ask yourself, while considering the fact that vitamins A, B, C, D and zinc strengthens the average person's immune system, why the government is heavily invested in "antibodies" tests and vaccines for covid19. Why are they going further with talks of an "antibodies/immunity registry?" The govt has NEVER been able to force vaccines...they are trying. Will you be able to return to work without a vaccine? Will students be able to return to schools without one? Are you willing to pump a foreign substance into your body which has not stood the test of time proving it's worth or risk?

12) Ask yourself if taking supplements makes the government money...or if vaccines do. If you're new to the truths found within the vaccine industry, brew a cup of coffee and familiarize yourself.

13) Ask yourself why they are pressuring President Trump to lift his refusal in allowing aborted baby tissue, cells, etc for the covid vaccine research bc they have expressed they *need* these aborted babies in order to create a covid19 vaccine.

14) Ask yourself why churches are closed yet kill mills (abortion clinics) remain open. Not for emergencies, not for those few cases the mother's health is in jeopardy but for business as usual. Why are liquor stores open yet we cannot sit inside our cars at our church parking lots without police officers showing up, recording license plates, issuing fines for noncompliance? One may say regarding the liquor stores remaining open, "well, addicts would go into withdrawls and overwhelm our hospitals." You mean the empty hospitals whose staff are scratching their heads at the lack of covid19 patients? Back to Church...why is it that socially distancing is not enough : socially distancing in vehicles, never exiting, while worshipping yet they are using this to encourage a police state? 

15) Ask yourself why they are encouraging the American people to rat out their neighbors regarding social gathering or illnesses? Why it is being entertained that if you do not report a sick family member it gives them the power to come into your homes and remove them. Can. You. Imagine? Hitler anyone? Last I checked it is my right to stay home, self quarantine, and treat my illness as I see fit...JUST AS I'VE DONE FOR MY ENTIRE ADULT LIFE. We don't use doctors for viruses...we stay at home, treat and recover without any vaccines or hospital intervention. 

16) Election year...now there is a push for mailing ballots because "covid19 . Can you imagine the fraud? If you dont see a red flag in this, again, brush up on what party has been pushing for this for some time. I'm not saying this to divide...just being observant. 

There are SO MANY pieces to covid19. No one, including myself, has all the pieces in order to complete the puzzle. However, most Americans feel something is not quite right...trust that. It's called discernment. Observe, pray, listen, decide for yourselves.

Even though I felt in my heart to resist against the covid19 narrative, I complied so that I could have time to put some pieces together. Now, I'm listening to medical personnel who are being told to LIE....I'm listening to coroners who are being told to list *all non-murder deaths* as covid19 (very trustworthy, honorable, firsthand friends and family). I'm listening to the frontline workers who are revealing that the vents are not working but rather killing these patients....bc it's the WRONG TREATMENT. I'm listening to the drs and medical personnel who are as puzzled as we are...bc the numbers are simply NOT THERE. The news media is lying, the government is lying, and we are the ones who suffer....our families, ourselves, our communities, our states, our country, our economy. 

Buckle up and prepare...there are agendas and wicked hearts behind this. 

Brace for significant impact.

Mary's puppies

Growing up Mary was sad, she was different than the other girls,

While they were blonde hair,  blue eyed and tan,

Mary was a red head ginger with curls. 

the girls would point, the boys would stare, it seemed worse with every day.

She never knew what prank they would pull,

or what one of them might say.

Mary would soon find out, it had nothing to do with her hair, 

the reason all the girls would point and all the boys would stare.

You see, Mary hadn't really noticed, what everyone else could see,

she had started to develop something quite extra-ordinary.

Many names they have been given, 

breasts, tits, boobs, pups, twins,  and mammaries, 

but just as the descriptions can be endless,

size neither adheres to boundaries.

As Mary continued to get bigger, from adolescence into her teens,

so did her companions, from C's to D's to E's. 

Until the day came, 

She was walking across the stage,

On graduation day from high school,

She noticed she liked what was happening, 

Thinking to herself this attention is pretty cool.

All the girls were jealous,

The boys whistling loud as could be,

As Mary walked across the stage with her bouncing doubled D's.

So from then on it was the stage life for Mary,

Dancing, splits and spinning around poles,

Ones, tens and twenty dollar bills,

all for playing a naughty little role.

They would no longer call her Mary,

that freckle faced little ginger  that wouldn't hurt a flea,

Mary was now Inga, the big breasted, horned cap wearing, Norwegian Viking from the Bering Sea. 

So thank goodness for Mary's puppies,

in the end they saved the day.

Her family no longer on welfare,

they even have a maid.

Nothing is too good for Mary, she can have anything she please,

As long as she keeps the puppies bouncing,

For all the men to see.

So every night that Mary turns into Inga,

she's keeping her bank account fed,

using the puppies as Viking hammers,

Hitting patrons over the head.